Celebrating the wonderful ups and challenging downs of this journey called motherhood...
I am a terrible mother. I got my son hooked on the tablet and phone pretty much since he was a baby. And now that he is 3.5 years old, I think I am seeing the negative repercussions of my poor parenting. My son doesn't recognize his name, when I call him he doesn't look at me. He has speech delays, he cannot string phrases together yet. When I ask him "Do you want milk?", instead of saying "yes" or "no", he just repeats the question back, "Do you want milk?". It really bothers me. Some say children just progress at their own pace and it's tempting to just deny that there is a problem, but my gut is saying that there might be some underlying cause here.
Have you experienced being at a point in your life where it feels everything is at a standstill and you're just a spectator looking at everything going on around you and not really having the power to change anything? You feel trapped and hopeless and depressed and anxious all at once!
Have you had these moments in your life? Have you ever felt stuck? What did you do about it? If you're still stuck, what are you doing about it?
I bought this batch of animals for my son and it's a hit! He loves animals and he plays with these all the time. They're made of a rubbery type of material and some of them are softer to the touch. This is just the first batch of animals, I'm still on the lookout for more farm animals to purchase. I looked at Amazon and they have a pretty decent selection of animal toys.
I am going to look around in malls and toy stores though to see what they have. I think it's cheaper that way. When I was a kid I never had toy animals. Now that my son is showing some preference on these type of toys, I find that I like them too. I'm an animal lover myself so I'm happy that my son is showing signs of being an animal lover too.
I just recently stumbled upon this website that offers a newsletter service called "Notes From The Universe" and it looks really cool so I signed up. Here are three messages I would like to share with you that really hit it home with me.
The Top 10 things about time and space that most people seem to forget…
10. You chose to be here and you knew what you were doing.
9. There are no “tests” and you’re not being judged.
8. Everyone’s doing their best, with what they know.
7. You already have whatever you’re looking for.
6. You are of the Divine, pure God, and so is everyone else.
5. Religion needs spirituality; spirituality does not need religion.
4. You’re naturally inclined to succeed – at everything you do.
3. You happen to life, life does not happen to you.
2. Order, healing, and love belie every moment of chaos, pain, and fear.
1. Following your heart is the best way to help others.
Because I'm trying to control my son's eczema by eliminating certain foods from his diet that might trigger flare ups, I decided to cook some quinoa pancakes for him today. There are so many recipes online but I stuck to a simple one.
Dealing with my son's eczema on his wrist has been a hard, frustrating thing. At first it was just random flaky spots on his legs and those went away after I applied Aveeno Eczema Lotion on them. But the most stubborn eczema he has is on his wrist. It's just this big circular patch that started appearing around a month ago when he was 18 months old and just wouldn't go away no matter what I do. He keeps scratching until it bleeds and becomes all red and crusty.
I came across this article written by a mom, Jessica Dimas at her blog, Pig & Dac. It is so heartfelt and just reading it made me cry. She wrote it so well, I swear, it's like I could have written this to my own son...
This post caught my attention on Mother's Day (I don't know who wrote it), and it just touched my heart. Ever since I became a mom, I know it's my responsibility to raise a human being and to be honest, the mere thought of that SCARES ME. Don't get me wrong, it is a very fulfilling job and a job that I welcome and embrace wholeheartedly, but sometimes I question myself whether I'm doing a good job or not, whether I am doing what's right for my son or not. We all have self-doubts, and I'm sure every momma out there can relate.